I’m not going to dwell on this because I’m not really an apologetic or emotional person at all, but I am REALLY sorry for sending you that sext and getting you in trouble with her. I was just….
I was really horny. I have no excuses. It’s like you took over my brain and I was filled with desire and it was late and I hadn’t slept and I just did the first dumb thing that came to my mind.
I’m also sorry that I think I’d sent you that picture before. It wasn’t even a new one. So, I’m sorry I got you in trouble and I’m just sorry I’m stupid.
I think that I’m obsessed with you. Or in love with you. I know I’ve told you before that I love you, but this is different. I meant then that I loved you unconditionally. Now I think it’s deeper somehow. I like stalk your youtube channel and listen to you talk and sing and do screamo just to hear your voice and your words…. And I am overcome each time with “oh wow his eyes are so gorgeous”, “oh wow he’s so hot”, “oh wow he’s adorable when he’s talking about Freemasonry” (or whatever else)…. And it just runs soooo deep that I can’t contain myself. I stay up all night with my heart pounding and just internet stalk your channel and sometimes try to fall asleep to your voice.
I’m not this obsessive all the time, of course, but I have been lately because I was dumb enough to watch one of your videos on there a while back and just got sucked into your magnetism all over again.
You are the most magnetic person ever to me. You are the flame and I am a very stupid, obsessive moth.
Which is weird, because normally, I have absolutely no feelings for anyone or anything. Generally. It’s like I’m a machine. You just make me feel alive.
So, to summarize, I love you and I’m really sorry. I wish you still talked to me. I’d take it all back if I could, since it would mean talking to you again.