I have to confess this somewhere, so i guess it may as well be here. I have a bf of quite a few years now, whom I do love very much. Hes hurt me in the past, but i forgive him every time. One of the most recent hurts, was that he did something behind my back that i never thought id ever be able to bring myself to forgive, but I have. And we are moving forward. Yeah, what he did still haunts me and makes me question his love for me. It makes me insecure at times and paranoid. But a part of me understands it all.
And you. I see you almost every day. You’re married and i could be confused..sometimes i think you might be attracted to me too. Then again, im afraid to think or feel anything. I know you’re married and id never do anything to try to come between you and your wife, i know its incredibly disrespectful and god, i just wish i didn’t feel this way. Its like sometimes when i’m around you, like in a room alone with you, the break room or the back room…, idk. I feel like such a little girl and i know you’re like 50 something and said today you think you’re an old man… I really don’t think you’re that old. And i just always want to say something so badly, but i don’t want to make things uncomfortable and awkward and i sometimes just want to push this feeling i have aside b/c i know its just a stupid little crush and its wrong. And that one valentines day you said you think i’m very pretty, really kinda reinforced my feelings more. But idk. You’re a nice guy. You seem nice with everyone and maybe that’s really all it is. But you’re actually really cute. Its driving me crazy and maybe its a good thing that you cut out one of your days b/c I def. Have a thing for you that when i see you i cant shake.