• Heartbroken

    by  • January 2, 2018 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 5 Comments

    I guess I am as disposable as the traah.
    I am trash to you.
    That should make it easier to allow myself anger for you.
    But it doesn’t.

    I don’t deserve this.
    But I guess if it’s this easy for you,
    Then I should be thankful for all of the pain you’re saving me down the line for walking away now.

    I once to you that if this ever happened, don’t bother to try to come back. Truth is for the last 24 hours, I wanted to talk to you and only you about something I found out yesterday. But the more time that passes, the more I hope you follow your own instructions that you gave to me. This childishness is… you know how I feel about it. So I guess that means I committed an unforgivable sin.

    I hate you for this. As soon as I can get over the fact that you have lied to me about what I mean to you for years, you will be dead to me. Foreever. Just like everyone else who pretended to give a fuck about me in my life. You are exactly the same as them, just like I feared.

    5 Responses to Heartbroken

    1. Me
      January 2, 2018 at 8:33 pm

      A persons feelings for another can change when they get to know them better.

      • Maybe, but
        January 3, 2018 at 7:22 pm

        People deserve better than to be thrown out with the trash though. I don’t care how your feelings for them change.

      • author
        January 18, 2018 at 12:07 am

        so true. but be honest. dont leave them wondering, Coward. Tell them you liked them initially and now, you just feel no attractions. Be honest. Only a coward leads them on and drops them, Ugh. Way to care more about yourself than anyone else. Great job!

    2. B.
      January 2, 2018 at 10:35 pm

      I wonder how many people I’ve made feel like you do now. I wonder how many people hate me. I wish I could remember the feeling, remember the lows, remember the pain. Instead my mind erases the bad and replaces it with fanciful pasts. Thank you for reminding me of the pain I cause. I hope you remember how much you’re worth. I hope you remember that you are deserving of love and happiness. I hope those who hurt you also remember.

      • author
        January 18, 2018 at 12:10 am

        I am sourly reminded of high school and being befriended by a popular guy who was initially attracted to me. But after digging in deeper, he feels a sibling type love for me. He is protective and caring. And…. he drops me. Thanks, my loving brother.

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