• This is it.

    by  • December 30, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 5 Comments

    You know I am here. I know you are here. Say something so I know it is you. I will check this only one more time if you don’t speak up. If you would like to say anything else to me, say it. I have never bought any of your bull. You thought I just believed everything you said. You think it was an accident I never called or text you when I knew you were at home with her? Uh, no. When I was done, I “called you out.” I text you while you were home to be certain, I sure didn’t want to believe it. It was just icing on the cake when she thought you were gay. I wanted to scream and cry when you openly talked about her to me. Poor you. My wife… my wife…. my wife….. I was absolutely nothing to you. Every time you said that, I felt like I had been stabbed in the heart. I have my closure. You wouldn’t give it to me so I gave it to myself. A lot of bad things have happened to me in my life. I would rather have been raped than go through that. You raped my heart and my mind. Hey, remember when we were in line in Old Navy and you saw someone you knew. I thought you were going to puke. You were so relieved when I didn’t talk to you. So relieved when I didn’t mention I noticed. Just because I was nothing to you doesn’t mean I am nothing. I have worth, just not to you. I believe this will be the last time I ever speak to you. Goodbye.

    5 Responses to This is it.

    1. Me
      December 30, 2017 at 1:25 pm

      I’m sorry, so sorry, I hurt you and especially my wife who has no idea what I’m doing to her. The reason I talk to you about my wife is because I need someone to talk to and I have no one. The person I really want to talk to is my wife, but I don’t want her to look at me differently, I messed up. All the things we do and talk about, I really want to do with my wife, there was a reason she was the only woman I’ve married in a world of billions of people. I’ve let everyone down especially my beautiful bride, but I can’t tell her because I value her opinion and she we leave me, probably for someone who will treat her like gold, but that someone is suppose to be me…. and well… I’m having a hard time being the man she chose to marry, I’m doing a disservice to my wife and not being the best father. I’ve had this probably for years, I’ve always cheated, I’ve lied to get women, my wife and I don’t have an open relationship, that was also a lie. I’m sorry and to my wife I hope we can work out everything, but I have to come
      Clean. And me drinking right now is not helping.

    2. a reformed cheater
      December 30, 2017 at 2:29 pm

      Clearly this guy is going through a rough patch with his wife, and ur just being used emotionally for him to talk to so he can get his burdens off his chest and maybe get between ur u know what. I mean why would he lay the burden on his wife. He can give you all the burdens and come
      Home to his woman and let her stay a happy wife because he ibviously cares about her emotional well being and clearly still cares for her his most prized possession. At the same time, his wife can do better, and he knows this, that is why he doesn’t tell her. I think he has major issues, and instead of facing his disdain within himself, he finds other people to lay it on. He probably thinks he cares for you, but that’s just his mind, his fantasies, his heart and actions tell otherwise. You look good to him because he has not been in a long term relationship with you, so he thinks
      It will be completely different with you or
      other people who are not his wife. But then if he makes it a reality, he’s gonna hate it, because he going to have the same relationship he had with his wife with someone new. Problem is, no one and nothing stays new, so off he goes again to another relationship, and another and another ect. What I hope he learns from this was that the woman he married was not the problem. He was the problem. All he had to do was give his time and affection to her. You don’t marry someone if their is no romantic sparks. Obviously he has that with her still, it
      doesn’t go away, it might take some effort and communication to get back to where they were, but it always happens. Did you know men tell other women that their wife doesn’t have sex with them, or she treats me terrible, or I don’t love her, or she’s not you, or I can’t move out, or she’ll take the kids, take my money, will harm herself ect. It’s all lies to unsuspecting women, to get them to eventually sleep with them. There is no love for them or even lust or attraction. It’s to get what they want. Even if you start the relationship with them
      after the divorce, the fact if you were flirting with the idea of it beforehand, well, it’s never going to work. It was based on lies and deceit and I would not stay with the other woman because I would know deep in my soul that she is not a good woman deep down, that I gave her attention and she fell for it, I would know how needy she was that she couldn’t even find an unattached man. I would be thinking, what is wrong with her that no single man wants her? You see?
      Married men anyone can get, but single men, if a single man doesn’t even want to mess with that, well it looks like your not such a catch or an angel.

    3. Wake up.
      December 30, 2017 at 6:57 pm

      Your best bet is to go to his wife at their home in person and have a talk with her.

    4. LLK
      December 31, 2017 at 12:32 pm

      Wow, you were awfully self-righteous for a hobag.

    5. Me
      January 1, 2018 at 8:04 pm

      I am going to be harsh because you need a kick in the ass.

      Really….I mean really? I tried so fucking hard with you. All I ever got from you was lies and cheating. You were always online looking for someone better.

      I’m sorry if I cared about her feelings, she is a human being and I was destroying her life…. with you. The reason I was going to puke was not because of me, it was because it would be the final blow to everyone in the entire family…and yes I care about peoples feelings. I do not feel good destroying lives or breaking up families. The thing you may never get is, if you were true to me, I would have done it. Now it’s 9 years later and you are married to someone else (at least I think you are married). I have received emails from you over the years, I received an email from your partner asking that I do not reply and if I have met up with you, and now I see you on here blaming me for whatever.

      You are now married to whom seems to be a really nice person. Stop hurting them, stop being stuck in the past, and stop blaming other people. I will take 50% blame for what happened to us, but you need to own the other 50% blame.
      You are still young; live you life, love the person you are with, and be true to yourself and to them.
      Maybe I was put into your life for a reason that you may never figure out because you keep holding onto hurt, anger, and blame.

      I am sorry for just disappearing. My heart would not let me say goodbye and my head saw the disaster our relationship had become.

      I have no idea if this is you but I want you to know, I will never reply again. Staying in touch will cause harm to both of us.

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