I feel like a fool for hoping as long as I did, for holding onto nothing. It’s so obvious you never wanted me as much as I wanted you. If you did, the past would be different. And you see, this is why I feel like a fool. It has taken me so long to let this go. I try and try again, but always end up failing. I know I can’t and shouldn’t go on like this anymore, not into the upcoming new year and every new year to come. It’s not healthy. I need to try harder for my own sake and happiness.