• The Golden Life

    by  • December 20, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, Confession • 2 Comments

    I’m 16 and live in a decent city and go to a decent school and have a decent amount of friends. At home, I’m the golden child, the one that can do no wrong. My little brother gets in trouble more than the devil and my older brother is an unopened Pandora’s box. My sister lives too far away for me to tell.

    For the sake of this, there is no such thing as a golden child.

    I am a good kid; I always do good things, I volunteer, I don’t sneak out, etc. But I have to confess that I still strugle. All of these good things are not enough to cover up my failure in the academic portion of my education. I have a majority “B” grade, with the occasional “A” and sparse “D”. To my parents, this is a disaster. Well, not completely. I guess they still like me for not getting in trouble, but the fact that I still know they are disappointed with that hurts. All a kid, wants, whether they admit it or not, is for they’re parents to be proud.

    I keep trying to make them notice me by not being noticeable. When I get hurt or am in some sort of pain, I don’t say anything. I keep it hidden until it goes away or gets really bad. Doing this has affected my relationship with some of my friends. When they tell me something is wrong, all I want them to do is suck it up and shut up (part of it is I’m done with people’s bullshit and their problems, but that story is for another time). How is this plan working with my parents? Its not working. How is the situation with my friends? Making me miserable.

    2 Responses to The Golden Life

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      December 22, 2017 at 12:39 am

      im sorry. I don’t know what to say, im 15 and in Florida and have been an only child for up until very recently and ive been fucking up my life and i just want to say I read your letter and I empathize with you.

      • Um yeah nah
        December 26, 2017 at 2:18 pm

        Believe me at 15 you’ve got miles of years to fuck your life up – I’m way older and every year my life gets more fucked than the one previous. Enjoy your teenage years.

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