Well its that time of year again. Merry Christmas! Just kidding, I mean, not really, but I’ll save that for another day. Right now, what I really am saying is Happy Birthday! You act like birthdays arent that important to you, but I know you better than that. And even if you don’t really care, well, guess what? I do! Because your birthday should be one of if not the best day of your year, every year.
I wish I could be with you. I wish I could do anything to make your day better. Most of all, I wish I could give you a present. Because I cant, I thought maybe I could donate to a charity of your choosing? Just let me know which one you would like.
I often wonder what you wanted to be when you were a little girl. What did you think then about what your life would be like now? The truth is that no child can ever really comprehend what adult life is like, with its challenges and setbacks. But regardless of how you think you match up now with wherever you thought you might be at when you were young, know that I am so incredibly proud of you! Not just because I am hopelessly in love with you. Not just because of the many wonderful things you have achieved. Achievements don’t make you who you are. Your character does, and I fully understand how difficult it is to stay true to who you are in the face of life’s adversities and the opinions of others. Fuck em. Fuck em all. You are the brightest star in the sky, and anyone who doesn’t appreciate that is unworthy of your presence.
I don’t know that I could fully articulate all the reasons that I love you; I’m sure that I will think of some things after I post this, but let me try. You may be surprised, but my very favorite thing about you is your intelligence. I’ve known you for 5 years now, and every time I think I’m on the same level as you, you always prove me wrong. Don’t ever forget that your mind is your greatest asset. That’s for anyone, but particularly someone as smart as you. On top of your brains, and I’m not sure if anyone has told you this, but you are quite beautiful. :; I don’t really feel the need to add more than that; I think you already know how I feel in that regard. Hmm, lets see, what else? Well, your strength continues to inspire me. I can’t even imagine the things you’ve persevered through in your life. One experience in particular for you, you know, you didn’t have to do that. But you did. Because you’re strong and you knew you could. I hope you realize that you had that strength all along and still do, it didn’t come from that experience. That’s who you are. You protected me before I even knew who you were. How cool is that? But, I want to remind you, that doesn’t define you, its just a part of you. You are so much more. You are funny and compassionate and loving. You are a daughter and a sister, and one day (I hope) a helluva a mother and (my) wife. Most importantly, Antoinette, I hope you know that whatever the future holds for you, whether you’re a businesswoman or a bartender or the first woman President of the United States, whether you’re a mother and/or a wife, whether your life breezes along for you or mercilessly presents you with adversity after adversity, you, my love, will be great. You already are, and you get better day after day.
We may never be together, we may never have that first magical kiss. Maybe we’ll never get married and have kids. Maybe our fairy tale never comes to fruition. I accept that as a possibility. But not for one moment has that ever changed the way I feel about you. I used to get really bummed out on your birthday because I couldn’t celebrate with you. But now I realize that today isn’t about me at all. Today is about celebrating you and the exemplary woman you are/are becoming still/always were in the making. You’re not going to see me today, and I’m sorry that I can’t tell you this all in person, or at least hand you a card with this letter scribbled inside. I just hope that you remember that I am always thinking about you, praying for your well-being, and wishing you nothing but happiness and fulfillment in every part of your life. No one deserves as much as you do, and I hope you get every bit of it.
You will always be my Wonder Woman. Happy birthday my dear.