• Forever Missing

    by  • December 14, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, Depression • 3 Comments

    I’m sorry for not doing what I could and in some way contributing to why you left. I hope your life is well, I look to your past guidance to be my future. I would do anything to get you back in my life and say the things I never said. No matter the context. I fear yet don’t that what little understanding of emotion I hold that what I feel looking back now and in those moments, I felt in love and happy. You’ve heard my I don’t want to marry or have kids speech. My stance on contact and affection, but for you I would have changed it all. You were my exceptions and my riffs to stability. When things went wrong you were they, when things were right you were there. I’m sorry I sucked at giving that back to you. You always told me if you could give me one thing it would be confidence, I want you to know that you did. You bring a smile to my face, I don’t and could never hold spite to you. I’d change my whole life for you. For everything you gave me and could give me. Thank you for it all. Thank you for everything and letting me be there for you when you saw fit. I still check in hopes that you’ll pop up and start our cycle up. I’m probably a spec in the past for you, you’ll never come back. With those thoughts thank you for it all. My two years of bliss and going through it all with me and not eluding much of yourself. I’m sorry I didn’t try harder, you needed what you gave me for yourself, but you wouldn’t accept me when I try to gave it to you. Thank you, I hope your dreams are coming true and that our paths cross again and lead to recogizition

    3 Responses to Forever Missing

    1. A
      December 16, 2017 at 7:19 am

      You hurt me beyond words. Again and again. I’ve always given you second chances and third chances and hey even fourth- but this time? I cannot- for my own self worth and happiness. You WERE my happiness M.
      Each day is seemingly harder

      • Bundle
        December 18, 2017 at 10:29 am

        It must be quite difficult to type in a straitjacket!

    2. M
      December 20, 2017 at 4:14 pm


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