Struggling so so much at the moment.
I’m so tearful, so low, so sad.
I just feel like I can’t pick myself up again.
I feel like I can never say or do the right thing not even for my own benefit.
I know I’m probably just feeling overly emotional. Overly hormonal. If I get some good sleep tonight, maybe just maybe, I could feel at least 2 times better tomorrow. I did really well yesterday, had a good day. Today, didn’t do so good. Felt like I made the wrong decision again.
I don’t want to walk in and look a mess tomorrow. I want to look like I’ve got my shit together. I really couldn’t feel any less like I could at the moment but it’s something that I need to do.
I need to do this!
I’m really lucky I’ve been given the chance to have an early night tonight! That’s a good start! I might put a nice Disney film on and go to sleep. There’s lots to do but right now I need to start taking my own advice and look after me! Put myself 100% first!!
That’s actually my New Years resolution, my main one, to look after myself. To be proud of myself. To stop being so self-critical!!
Need to make sure I allow enough time in the morning for the car to defrost also!!
Gonna set my alarm for half an hour earlier than I need to be up and hope for the best.