I wish I was drunk, and so there would be no inhibitions and I would just impulsively wish him a happy birthday. Somethings I wish I had the guts to say to you in person:
1.) You have the ability to make me so happy by merely saying or doing something that just exemplifies your kind, and caring nature. I find my heart melting, and at that moment, there are no barriers.
2.) I will always be grateful for your supports especially at my lowest points.
3.) How your presence has the ability to send me to a euphoric state. You even have to do anything/try sometimes. Your personality/demeanor is enough to satisfy me.
4.) I am in love with the beliefs and principles you seem to uphold. For instance, you are a gentle, but honest person.
5.) I find your shyness that are shown through your expressions and mannerisms to be super attractive and cute.
6.) I know I may be confusing some of what I’m feeling w/ infatuation or a “celebrity crush”. I don’t know how to describe what I feel for your in one word. But in the end, I don’t care to label what type of love/affection I feel towards you. All I know is that I’ve never felt so real about anyone before, and I never wanted to get to know someone as much as I want to know you! I really hope that when I get into a grad school, that there will no longer be any differing conceptions on our relationship. Like I don’t want to see you as a friend, while you only see me as a mentee.
7.) I love it when you’re shy and reserved, but I love it even more when you open up to me more, and reveal a side of you not seen too often in the academic setting. It makes me happy to see you genuinely laughing so wholeheartedly and effortlessly. And it makes me happy thinking/feeling the barriers between us is slowly subsiding. I hope that as Time passes, I will see more sides of you that I have yet been exposed to.
8.) I could say more things, but to shorten it, I guess I’ll just end with this. I really wish you happiness on your birthday. You deserve nothing but the best, and I hope you get spoiled and pampered on your special day. You are such a thoughtful person to others, that you only deserve it be reciprocated by the kindness and happiness that you give to others.