I haven’t always felt this way. I used to cringe watching people crush on you. I always appreciated your attractiveness, tall with stunning blue eyes, but I guess I dismissed it because of a multitude of factors.
Yet now it’s different. I don’t know what changed but I love you more than I’ve ever loved anybody.
I know that my feelings are so real because I’m afraid to share them. (And we all know how much of a struggle that is for an open book like me) But everyone around us will struggle to accept it.
I’m certain that one day our lives will be very different and your reaction last night confirmed to me that you feel the same way.
I know the whole idea seems ridiculous but I guess you can’t help the way you feel.
The fact I’ve not managed to successfully uphold a single relationship in the 3 years since I met you is now starting to make sense.
I want you to be happy more than anything else. God only knows how much you’ve made me happy in the past few months and that’s without any physical contact. It makes me sad every day knowing you go home to an unhappy marriage but I value the sacrifice you’ve made to keep your daughter happy.
The way you talk about your love for her is incredible. Your eyes light up when you speak about her.
I hope I get to meet her properly and turn her into a big sister one day?
Now I sound like I’ve completely lost it. I know that. It’s not all in my head though is it?
Probably always yours (from one day in the future until forever)