I would like to write this letter and just let you know that you can go fuck yourself. I realized that we kissed and made up but it doesn’t stop me from feeling this unrelenting anger and resentment towards you.
You are incredibly large asshole and I wish I had the strength to destroy your ego and shatter your views. I know what words I could use to hurt you. I can’t do that, I am so in love with you that hurting you would hurt me. I’m unsure if I am scared of hurting you or if I have a strong inclination towards self preservation…
With a look of bewilderment you described just how beautiful you thought your ex was. You described how men would fall head over heels in love with her, how everyone liked her. Then you proceeded to look for photos of her to PROVE how beautiful she was.
Do you care how this made me feel? Did you think of my feelings at all? Did you care?
Because your comment destroyed me. It demolished my self esteem and drilled a hole into my stomach that I cant seem to pick myself out of. I am scared that you have so much control of me. I’m scared at how low my self esteem is that a simple comment could bother me so much that I am replaying it in my head 3 days later. Most of all I’m upset there was an air of unsaid words between us, you never said she was more beautiful than me but it was implied and that is what hurts the most. The way you nonchalantly ripped me to pieces and acted like I should have known better, fuck you.
Fuck me for loving you so much I let you do this to me and I come back for more.