• Why Won’t You Let Me Go?

    by  • November 20, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 1 Comment

    It’s been over 15 years now since we last saw each other. I was 21 and you were 20. We were both young and foolish, but I had the added characteristic of being dumb. You went home to Russia, got married and had a daughter because I didn’t ask you to stay.

    Every few years you send me an email. They are identical in their content.

    “Haven’t heard from you in a while. How are you?”

    Those emails always correspond with me being at my emotional worst. It’s like you have a sixth-sense. How am I? I never got married or had any children. I spent all my time working on a career with nothing to show for it. I’m taking steps to try and find some happiness in life, but every time I hear from you, it’s like I’m that stupid 21 year old again.

    But, I don’t tell you that. I just say, “I’m fine. How are you?”

    I just got another email from you. It’s over. Why won’t you let me go and why do I keep responding to them?

    One Response to Why Won’t You Let Me Go?

    1. sucks
      November 20, 2017 at 3:35 pm

      Because sometimes we crave pain.

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