It’s been over 15 years now since we last saw each other. I was 21 and you were 20. We were both young and foolish, but I had the added characteristic of being dumb. You went home to Russia, got married and had a daughter because I didn’t ask you to stay.
Every few years you send me an email. They are identical in their content.
“Haven’t heard from you in a while. How are you?”
Those emails always correspond with me being at my emotional worst. It’s like you have a sixth-sense. How am I? I never got married or had any children. I spent all my time working on a career with nothing to show for it. I’m taking steps to try and find some happiness in life, but every time I hear from you, it’s like I’m that stupid 21 year old again.
But, I don’t tell you that. I just say, “I’m fine. How are you?”
I just got another email from you. It’s over. Why won’t you let me go and why do I keep responding to them?