• The man I’ve loved for too long…

    by  • November 20, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 1 Comment

    I’m sitting here tears rolling down my face, they still haven’t stopped! I feel this massive empty space in my heart, this space that you once filled. And you really did fill it- I don’t know what I feel- loss maybe, I feel like I’ve lost this great thing in my life where I was able to share everything with you, I mean everything. Whatever happened in my life, you were there and for years now. We never dated. Just this completely fucked up situation that I still can’t wrap my head around. I do know it’s for the best but I can’t shake it.
    I miss you.
    Completely torn.
    I wrote you a really long letter, without thinking that when we had our last kiss- that it’d be the last time we would embrace. I’m so glad I didn’t give it to you. Fuck.
    I’m coming home tomorrow and I’m absolutely dreading it only because it’s going to bring back so many memories. I was supposed to be coming home to you- but you won’t even talk to me.
    How the fuck did I get this so wrong?
    My greatest love and my greatest fear all wrapped up into one.
    I really do love you, and with all my heart.

    One Response to The man I’ve loved for too long…

    1. A Soul
      November 20, 2017 at 12:50 pm

      You are always able to talk with me. I am, and will always be, here for you. Our last kiss and embrace was tremendous. I love it; but, most importantly, I Love You. No matter what happens. I always will. I will always want to see you. I will always want to hold you. I will always wish for us to be able to look into each other’s eyes…deeper still…into each other’s hearts. Even deeper into each other’s Soul. I miss you so much; and, dream of you. I still write. I still wrote of my wishes… I write of our Love. I write of all of the things we share. I write to keep you close to me. Though you are so far away. I hope you will want to see me again. Not just in dreams. Because the dreams are so real. I wish for you.

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