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    by  • November 17, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, Friends • 0 Comments

    Dear Ex Best Friend,
    Thank you.

    Thank you for showing me what happens when someone you truly love leaves you in the dark.
    Thank you for showing me the even the people that seem closest to you can turn around and hurt you more than any true enemy could think to do.
    Thank you for teaching me what a loyal is and most of all the definition of a true friend.

    You see, I don’t hate you. ——- Honest Truth, I still love you.

    but what i do hate… Is the fact I trusted you with Everything.
    I hate that I invested so much time into a friendship that ended up meaning nothing.
    I hate that you stood beside me when i took my vowels to the person i will spend my life with,
    and that i stood next to you when you did the same.
    I hate all the inside jokes we Laughed about for hours.
    I hate all the fun times we spent just doing stupid stuff.
    I hate that i spent hours texting you about random things and telling you stuff I would never tell anyone.
    I hate that we shared so many Similar interest from music, dancing, singing, clothes and everything in between.

    Have you ever sat there and looked up the definition of hate?
    Just to save you some time here is one of the definitions that describe my hate so PERFECTLY
    – used politely to express one’s regret or embarrassment At doing something.

    “Used politely to express one’s regret”
    You see, I don’t regret you ——- Honest Truth, I still love you.

    but what I regret… Is thinking you and I would be BEST friends for ever.
    I regret thinking our children would grow up being closer than you and I ever were.
    I regret thinking we would continue our tradition of Tacky Sweater Parties, Dressing up for Halloween, Talking about stupid Disney Movies and why we are both over the age of 20 and think DISNEY is the best thing in the world.
    I regret telling you that you hurt me. Maybe I should of kept it in.
    But most of All I regret thinking you would understand.

    Have you ever sat there and looked up the definition of regret?
    Again, Just to save you some time here is one of the definitions that describe my regret so PERFECTLY
    – used in polite formulas to express apology for or sadness over something unfortunate or unpleasant.

    “Sadness over something unfortunate”
    You see, I dont have sadness towards you —— Honest Truth, I still love you.

    but what makes me sad.. Is you never thought to appologize
    What makes me sad is knowing you did not care about our friendship and went MONTHS without even speaking to me.
    What makes me sad is I’ve been around you since that day a hand full of times and I could see on your face so bad that you just wanted to give me a hug and talk to me like it was old times.
    What makes me sad is i wanted to do the same.
    What makes it an even sadder unfortunate situation is We both have to much pride to just talk about it and make things right. But go on about our lives and just say hi in passing instead of doing life as best friends like we were intended to do.
    Whats sad is we planned our future for our kids to be best friends just like us yet our children will most likely never meet each other, and never knew that their mothers were basically sisters at one point.

    The ending…

    Dear Ex Best Friend,
    I want you to know I still hurt. After months of feeling this way you should know I think of you every day, and not a day goes by that i don’t want to pick up the phone and tell you something that happened.
    I want you to know I’m proud of the person you have become even though that person hurt me.
    I want you to know I appreciate all the fun times we had and you taught me to appreciate all the true friends that stay around.
    I want you to know that even if its in passing Its going to put a smile on my face to see you in public smiling with your little family.
    I want you to know the day you decide that you are ready to apologize, I might not want to hear it because I want to think i have to much pride to forgive you.
    But most of all I want you to know I miss you so much, and that I’m sorry I couldn’t say this to you..

    – The Crowded Lonely Mind

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