• What am I missing?

    by  • November 14, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 2 Comments

    Did I go to prom my first two years alone because I couldn’t get you to go with me? Check.

    Did I not even go to prom my last year because I didnt want to go alone again? Check.

    Did I invite you to my graduation, but you didn’t even respond? Check.

    Did I break down in tears during my graduation when I realized you weren’t coming? Check.

    Did you ban me from my favorite place under false pretenses? Check.

    Did you cut off all forms of communication with me? Check.

    Did I still try to find you after all that? Check.

    Did I still continue to love you for years after you told me it was “impossible” for us to be together? Check.

    Did I still continue to love you after you told me you were in love with someone else? Check.

    Did I wish you happy birthday every year even though you probably don’t even know when mine is? Check.

    Did I wish you a happy valentine’s even though I hadn’t seen you in almost two years. Check.

    Did I write you hundreds of letters here, even after not receiving even one recognizable response? Check.

    Do I still love you. Check.

    Should I? Do you even care? Will things ever be different between us? I don’t have the answers to these questions.

    But I’m still the bad guy right?

    2 Responses to What am I missing?

    1. rhiannonsissues
      November 14, 2017 at 2:11 pm

      i don’t think you are the bad guy. and i hate being the one to say this, as i hate everyone that has said it to me. find someone else. don’t waste your time on someone who won’t give you just as much time as you spend on them. – am i lonely and alone right now? check but i realized that if he wanted me he would have given me the time of day. and that does help me to realize that eventually 🙂

    2. j.
      November 15, 2017 at 3:54 am

      This is so sad. I fear that what you are missing is living your own life and the chance of meeting someone who will truly love you. It’s hard to let go but sometimes you have to for your own health and wellbeing. Stopping all contact including looking at their socila media is a good start. Take care

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