I just want to shout out “I WANT A DIVORCE!”
You are not the man I met that was kind and patient. You are not the man I met that had an easy smile. You’ve become someone I no longer trust. You’ve never been able to be honest about your past (and probably current) substance use. I’ve tried time and time again to bridge that gap and open opportunities for you to share your struggles with me. I’ve wanted to help… I’ve wanted to be there for you. I’ve given you so many chances to help yourself. To come back to this marriage in one piece. To get your shit together! Two relapses and I’m still here. I can’t be any longer. Our CHILDREN deserve better. I deserve better.
How sad is it that our kids know you don’t want to hang around them? Oh, its a fun family day planned??? Cool!! But Dad won’t go so…. Yea it must suck for them to have that knowledge at their ages. It tears my heart out and I CAN”T DEFEND YOU ANYMORE! How can you not see? How can you not care? The crap you think is important doesn’t match with real life. Play with your kids! Bring them places!
How sad is it that we used to be on the same page with life goals? Now I feel as if we aren’t even in the same book. Hell, I think I might be in a different library! All you care about is materialistic BS. Who gives a F about all that! You didn’t need that newer truck. What we needed was a vacation trip together as a family. Can’t afford that now.
I’m just so over so many aspects of our life together. I think we would be better people and better parents if we went our own way. I want to tell you this right now. I want you to know how awful you make me and the kids feel so often. Our communication has broken down so badly that I’ve resorted to venting to an anonymous web site.
Guess I’m just as much a coward as you. Hmmm…. well… at least now I can imagine sending you this.
– Just Can’t.