I miss you. Everyday, every minute, every second. It’s you I am thinking of. You, when i wake up; you, when i talk; you, when I walk; you. Everything’s about you. And it hurts me seeing you not affected at all. It’s unfair. So unfair. Let me tell you a secret, I just realized this from the past few days, I love you–not as a brother, not as my best friend, but as a man. Yes, I have fallen in love with you. And it breaks me even more. I hate the fact that I realized it now that we’re not okay. Now I’m left with my own questions, did you also loved me back then? more than a friend? I don’t know if this will reach you, but somehow I wanted the world to know how I felt for you. I hope someday in God’s will you’ll be able to read this and know that it is me who wrote it. I love you Ian Paolo M. I always will. You will always be my “ugly monkey”.