Sometimes, I found myself stalking her (he’s ex). I can’t help it I don’t know. And there, I saw her pictures smiling, looks happy and contented. By the way, she’s like 27? And I’m like 20 so obviously she’s better than me in terms of earning money while me doing some assignments right now like crazy. This feeling of inferiority is killing me and yeah I admit I am insecure and envy. While looking at her picture, lots of things puffed up in my mind. They were like 8 years together and we are like 1 year and 2 months? Crap. What should I do. Given the fact that my past is not so good and another girl was the reason behind our break up. I am so depressed to the extent that I can’t fall asleep right now and can’t eat properly just because of not forgetting the past and all. Another problem is, our relationship is a secret to my family. There’s no one as in no one I can talk about it. I want to be happy. Yah, I am smiling, I am laughing mostly but at the end of the day, here I am found myself crying. When can I experience the real happiness?