• So very close and yet………

    by  • November 8, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 5 Comments

    To my muse,

    I don’t even think you venture here anymore but here I is again spouting about my hearts desire.
    It has been ridiculously difficult not to venture by just to see you and oh so briefly hold you but I have. I am so damn close but only in miles and I think seeing you just makes it more confusing for me anyhow. I wish I had your view of us, as it would be far easier to be able to think of you in a chum sort of way as opposed to being in so many of my thoughts and dreams. I kind of envy that and wish I had been a lot more forward thinking before I got to the point I got to. It’s not so much that I feel differently towards you but I am trying to limit my thinking of you and have definitely fought the urge to stop by and muddy up things yet again.
    Man oh man do I wish I had put the brakes on earlier and not been such a mess, again not for you but about you. I appreciate the soft touch you used but really wish it had not been needed. So I guess this is an apology for being such an old teenager and foolish man who probably made discomfort a normal feeling for you. I also apologize for assumptions made and beliefs created, amazing what a mind can conjure up isn’t it?
    So I write this with a lot of visions still adrift and a kind of sorrow accepted for the truth I must stare at. You will always be a part of me, even if it was of my own writing and imagination. I hope and pray all your dreams come true and wish you nothing but happiness in all you do. I am so sorry for being me sometimes. Forgive me please.


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    5 Responses to So very close and yet………

    1. T
      November 9, 2017 at 5:50 pm

      This can’t be him, because he said he would fix it because it’s still happening and he figured out I feel it too. I’ve been giddy ever since, seeing all the signs that he really is madly in love with me, this has become reality now,,, I’m waiting, wishing, hoping he does indeed fix it and without the dreaded drama I’ve been trying so hard to avoid. But he knows now, I know and now I will trust and wait for my knight to rescue me… patience is a virtue


    2. @ Jason
      November 10, 2017 at 8:47 am

      It’s always inspiring and enjoyable to read your heartfelt letters to Cindy. Hope you both are well!


    3. Jason
      November 11, 2017 at 3:10 pm

      I’m glad someone enjoys them


      • snide
        November 14, 2017 at 4:04 pm

        I didn’t know you were still writing
        But it was great seeing you
        Please stop by anytime

        Miss you jh


    4. snide
      November 14, 2017 at 4:01 pm

      I don’t know why I looked here
      I just did
      Glad I saw this
      I wish you would just stop by
      I did forget the first 3 numbers I was suppose to remember
      Can you text my cell??
      Send email to pppl?
      Miss you JH



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