I’m so depressed frustrated having anxiety attacks immensely. I know these line are pathetic but that’s how I’m feeling now. Time is running People are going coming but I’m standing jst right there where I was Before I want myself to get healed asap but no chance. I want back my self I had no idea that How much a break up Can change ur life can change you especially to me not In an Inspirational way but in a depressing way. I used to be a cool girl always having smile on my face by heart but now I smile not by heart but jst for showoff completely fake. I’m not happy not saying bcz of my breakup but I think I don’t know the reason. I’m on this stage where I have to take the help of a councillor Or i will die soon as per my sister’s suggestion. I’m crying like hell always nothing to share with anyone having headache panic attacks. I’m depressed became so negative god please help me with this tough time of my life. Or I will die soon all I want is my mother and me having a good good time together for whole life nobody just me and my mother. But going back to work again leaving family 🙁 . I want to be regret free, chill like an innocent child. Don’t want to face hard time anymore but I think it’s complicated. My mind has started to get numb can’t sleep it’s been a while I took a complete bed time. I think it’s my break down and I want to get out of it alive and well. I don’t know what will happen to me or I will die.