• Childless by Painful Choice.

    by  • November 4, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, Children • 4 Comments

    Mental health issues have plagued me about as long as I can remember. I’m almost 28 now and my problems are morphing into something I didn’t experience before. My family is riddled with issues. How much is environmental, I don’t know; It does seem as though there is a fairly prominent genetic factor and both worry me. How could I forgive myself if I had a child knowing I was risking all this? Even adopting a child would expose them to my ill-health and it is very ugly.

    Having children was something I never really -wanted- until I hit my late 20’s. I wouldn’t say it is any kind of grass-is-greener or peer-pressure situation. However, everything circulates around people having families. Of course, it is about the only thing that makes sense to us as animals and the drive to have children is so strong in me. I didn’t think it would be.

    My prospects in other areas of my life don’t seem very good either. I think that maybe one day I’ll be able to do normal life things, but it doesn’t compensate for the children I won’t have.

    I’m struggling a lot. It feels like the point of my life is gone and I’m having to constantly quash any fantasy I begin to entertain.

    4 Responses to Childless by Painful Choice.

    1. yes
      November 4, 2017 at 6:47 pm

      Dumb animals that believe they are superior but actually aren’t. Do what you want. Life will be over in no time anyways.

    2. Brooke
      November 4, 2017 at 11:54 pm

      Did you ever meet someone who truly made you want kids?

    3. Bundle
      November 5, 2017 at 6:45 am

      So are you male or female?

      I have a motto, “Presume nothing”.

    4. Britney
      November 5, 2017 at 5:13 pm

      Keep your chin up author. Maybe kids were never part of your plan. That does not mean that the person that is part of your plan will not already have children that you can love equally as your own. Maybe your health is concerning but the person that is your plan knows that and will love you just the same. You have a lot of time ahead of you. Please keep your chin up.

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