We just exchanged very cordial emails about the fact that we’re going to be in the same place later today … oh Allison, what I wanted to write in addition to “thanks” is that I am a mess knowing that I’m going to see you. I still am so in love with you and miss you so deeply … 5 years later?! Ugh, what is wrong with me. But you truly are that amazing woman who got away … I would have done anything to keep you if there was any thing you wanted from me. Sigh … anyway, I miss you, and my stomach is in knots and I am a mess knowing I will see you later. And I will be a mess for the week after seeing you!
That is what I couldn’t say in the email … it would not be fair to you, so I let it out here. I love you.