• I hurt you first.

    by  • October 17, 2017 • To You • 18 Comments

    I admit it. Finally.

    I hurt you first and I don’t know how you still give a fuck about me. I hurt you and you tried to get over it… but that shit was a big deal. No matter what I say, there is no way to prove my actions were not set on hurting you. Yet, that does not change the fact that you were hurt emotionally in the process. I can not sit here and say I love you without acknowledging the fact that you were hurt by the only person who should not have. Thank you for still talking to me. Thank you for being there still after all that. I understand now. I made it all about me me me for so fucking long that i completely ignored the fact that you were coping in your own way … alone.

    Gosh, im such a fucking dick.

    18 Responses to I hurt you first.

    1. Me
      October 17, 2017 at 8:35 pm


      I understand, I get it, I get why, I get it all, I forgive, and I still love you (Never stopped).
      One day (Hopefully soon) I hope to tell you to your face.

      You are not a dick, you are human, just like me….


    2. Me
      October 17, 2017 at 8:56 pm

      Is this you? Leave me a sign.

      • Me
        October 18, 2017 at 6:38 pm

        Dr. Phil

      • The Author
        October 22, 2017 at 9:07 pm

        Im doing bad things.

    3. So
      October 18, 2017 at 10:35 pm

      what are you going to do about it?

      • The Author
        October 22, 2017 at 9:10 pm

        Prove how much she means buy actually putting in an effort. Its worth the risk so im putting all my cards on the table. we’ll see how it goes…

    4. Anonymous
      October 19, 2017 at 2:57 am

      I have a feeling you should tell this person this. They need to hear this.

      • The Author
        October 22, 2017 at 9:16 pm

        We talked on the phone, surprisingly, and I apologized. I didn’t say it all but i mentioned the majority of things listed … and then some. I feel as if the rest needs to be said in person, if that chance ever arises, regardless of the outcome. She deserves it …

        • Good human being
          October 23, 2017 at 6:24 pm

          @Author I love it. Being a good human being. Its better than living in regret. It takes courage and humility. Its nice to hear people doing the right ting and taking action. Gives all of us hope.

    5. don't worry
      October 20, 2017 at 5:01 pm

      It doesn’t matter anymore. It’s the past.

    6. D$ck
      October 21, 2017 at 6:37 am

      If you were genuinely sorry about it you would let the person know.
      Directly, not indirectly by postings on an anonymous website. Writing on here does look like a start, however is just designed to make YOU feel good about yourself, sadly a continuation of acting like a bonafide @sshole t@sser.
      A true waste of lins space.
      Foxtrot Oscar.

      • The Author
        October 23, 2017 at 11:42 am

        Im glad you got that out. Hope you feel better. Based off of your logic ALL the post would be a waste of space. Including your comment.
        Please read my responses above.

      • Britney
        October 24, 2017 at 2:06 pm

        I totally love your reply dick!!! Truth and straight to the point.

    7. Identity unknown
      October 24, 2017 at 1:15 am

      Every letrer I know is for me
      Who would believe this site was a run of a mill
      Normal spread sandwich
      But I always know why I come here. And why I forgot big fish stories really reminiscence
      Or drip like they should.
      Because the only times I thought I lost it was when everyone almost died. When I heard women speak like girlsm
      I wish I could kiss ypur hearts
      Without seeing that a full blown discovery
      Would make me know hospital
      Rooms as if they are kitchen floors.
      I wish you would forget me.
      I know you won’t.
      I wouldn’t either
      A real big fish srory.
      Please send my love to the men you marry.
      Ill wrire a poem about this site
      Wondering irs mystery
      Maybe a wedding.
      Drink up. Smile.kisses.

      • The Author
        October 27, 2017 at 6:30 pm

        You wish I would forget you?
        Not possible.

        If you want me to let go then just say it.
        I promise you won’t hear from me again.

        Yes or No?

        • don't forget about me
          February 2, 2018 at 10:59 pm

          @Author no, don’t let me go..forever

    8. You are right you will never forget me. Thats a promise that I can keep.
      November 3, 2017 at 7:33 pm

      @Author you let me go. You said it that you are the dick. You want to say things in person. then bring it on. Make a choice and stick with it. You want to talk in person. then come to me. Do or do not. Stop talking and start making it happen or keep doing bad things and you will lose me forever.

    9. Hi Author
      January 31, 2018 at 6:54 pm

      How about this one? Same author as the other 3 I knew was same author?
      This is my only comment on this letter. Happened to come up in ‘related posts’ on recent ‘The love I lost.’ (Which I also think is same author as this)…. and those other 3.
      Because I’m insane. Because I think only love can make me. Or anyone. Insane.

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