• As time passes

    by  • October 13, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, Loneliness • 1 Comment

    It has been awhile since I visited and even longer since I wrote anything. I had someone stay with me for the first time in a long time and left yesterday- just visiting but it was the first time I have had to share a space. Like clockwork, I had a nightmare about you and my departure. I have mixed feelings and maybe I am making something out of nothing but you are still there. You are still in the sinking pit of my stomach and I can’t shake you. I suppose if I look within myself I would see I haven’t really tried. I just want you to know that. Just that. That I see the flaw I have made but I will continue to make it because I am fiercely loyal even when I am not asked to be, even when I am asked to leave, I am physically gone but mentally still there.

    I miss you and I love you and this means nothing but I thought I should state it.

    One Response to As time passes

    1. Ghost
      October 16, 2017 at 7:20 pm

      I know how you feel.

      No matter what you do that person is always there. I think about my person all the time…not on purpose. It just happens. There’s no more anger or sadness linked to it like it was in the past. Now it’s more like I’m numb to it. Memories rush in throughout the day. I’ll have dreams as if it was real life. We haven’t spoken to each other in so long yet I still feel like there’s some sort of spark just waiting to be lit.

      It’s crazy to go so long without talking because I feel like this was my forever person. How did we let this happen?

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