To The One,
You were so important to me in so many special ways and I am so fucking stupid for having believed your line of shit for so, so, so long. You had always been an oasis in my mind as I traveled through life, a love story never fully realized, a boys dream turned to a mans desire. All this and what have I learned??? Obviously not much if anything at all. What a court jester I must be for you, what an asshole I must be not to pick up on all the lies you have piled on me. I am so completely confused by all these revelations that I just need to quit this whole fucked up mess before it costs me everything I have. You don’t seem to have the capability to give an honest answer even if the true story is so fucking clear as to be laughable. All those dodged questions and evasive replies are equal to a string and a cat. Keep em jumping and wanting more while you enjoy the attention and I look like a grade “A” asshole. What fun. Your either innocent as a newborn without an ounce of manipulator in you or you are guilty as hell of all the above. I know your no innocent as I know your powers of manipulation. What the fuck? I deserve to be used like this? What the fuck did I ever do to you? Show love and desire and this is the end result? No more.
Fuck this. As much as I feel you deserve a Fuck You Too, it goes against my every thought and memory. And thanks for that too, ruining every memory and poisoning each and every thought and emotion I had. This really sucks. Just one honest answer would have meant the world to me but you just could not pull it off. What a fucking shame. A 100% died in the wool fucking shame. Thanks for the thought.