You used to stay with me if I get anxiety, because you said you’re afraid I’d do something stupid. But not this time. I understand. Remember when I told you, every boy thats been with me get tired of shit too? Yeah so its okay. I understand your need to get away from me while I’m having an “episode”, like you called it.
This will be same cycle over and over again, I couldn’t change or help who I am, so I understand if you can’t deal with me and choose to leave me because of this. Because its really okay. This is my problem, I should be the one who deal with this, not you. I’m so sorry for the past that I kept dragging you to my problems, so so sorry. But you are free now baby. Because I love you, I can’t let you be uncomfortable and miserable because of me. I want you to be happy and get a happy life. With me, I know you can never be happy. You don’t deserve a mess like me who constantly having an anxiety attack and couldn’t even get help for herself. I love you so much baby, I want you to be happy.
You said this cycle of my anxiety needs to stop, and yes because I love you, I’ll make it stop. I will make myself gone to make it stop because this is the only way I know. I love you baby, I love you so much with my life. You are the only thing that kept me going. But not anymore, because of my anxiety, I made you uncomfortable and miserable. I’m sorry for all my mistake baby. I’m really sorry.
You know they said, when you die, you’ll become one of those stars above. I wish I will become one too, so at least when I die, I can watch over you. And when you miss me, if you ever miss me, you can just look up to the stars baby, I’m there, I’ll always be there for you. I love you baby. I need to go now. Goodbye sweetheart. I love you, be happy with your life okay? ????
Your baby bear.