I don’t know if I’m obsessed or if there is something more, but everything hurts and its because I’m doing it for you.
Everything I do has something to do with you. Even when I’m just admiring myself its because I admire you. That sounds creepy and its strange but that is the way it is.
I just always have a link to you in everything I do. Sometimes the link makes me more emotional, sometimes I can ignore it.
But no mater what I have done, it has not gone away. Its been almost two years, and the only thing that has changed is my rationality and stability.
You still remain a hole in myself that I constantly wish to fill by one day finally meeting with you and keeping you.
I don’t like you though. I’m so sad with who you are, with what you’ve done with yourself. I just want the you that’s hiding on the inside, I just want that. I hate that you’re malicious nature has ruined yourself.
But despite me disliking you, that doesn’t make a difference. I only dislike you because I care for you so much that any mistake you make is a threat to yourself in my mind.
Help me. I want your help, your companionship, and your support here with me. I know you can give me what I’m missing, because what I am missing is you.
I just don’t have anything else in me but you. Everything I do, literally everything, has a link to you underneath. Because I MYSELF have a link to you. We are together, please let it be true.
I love you.