• I didn’t want this

    by  • September 16, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, Frustration • 2 Comments

    It was a normal day for me, untill I saw you that is. I felt something that in all my life I had never felt, like a bolt from God strait to my heart. For years I had built up barriers and walls to keep the world out and in a split second you tore them down in the time it took you to smile. You probably don’t even know you made such an impact, I probably don’t even matter to you just another face in a crowd but when I see you I feel my very soul struggling to be close to you. It’s pathetic and I hate the feelings I have but they are there and no matter how hard I try to ignore you, for all I try to blank you out. I just can’t do it. These feelings are far to strong, that scares me more than anything, I care about what you think and it’s changing me. I have never felt the need to find someone, I was alone but I was happy and then along you came.. I didn’t want this, I don’t need these feelings but I have them and now for the first time in my life I feel lost. I thought falling for someone was a lie I laughed “love is not for me it’s a lie anyway” then you came to prove me wrong. I wish you had just left me be but for whatever reason you didn’t and now I have these thought and feeling I didn’t ask for and no idea what to do with them.

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    2 Responses to I didn’t want this

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      September 16, 2017 at 1:26 pm

      Tell them




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    2. EmptytpmE
      September 24, 2017 at 10:45 pm

      It’s sad




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