• I am

    by  • September 16, 2017 • To You • 3 Comments

    Still in love with you, but seeing how you want nothing to do with me anymore I have no choice but to seek elsewhere. I have my eyes on someone. I don’t say this to make you jealous because I know your over me and could give a shit less. That’s the good thing about this site. You have no clue who this is. With all the letters I’ve read hear I will admit at first I was jealous. As time has gone on I just tell myself that I was no different to you than all the others you’ve got feelings for. I am just one of them, or was. I don’t get jealous anymore. I hope you’ve found someone your head over heals for and if you haven’t I hope you do. I know I want to find a woman that I have a deep connection with. You were my first. You were the best I ever have had been with. I’m not saying that to make you feel good. Like I’ve said you could care less about how I felt about you. I’m not saying that to be mean. It’s just that you never owed me anything. You made it clear you were already dedicated. I know you were just curious about being with another woman. Nothing wrong with that. You didn’t owe it to me to stay in contact with me. You had every right to just end it. I will say one thing. You showed me just how deep I could feel for another woman. It was beautiful. You are absolutely gorgeous. I want that connection again. I crave the touch of a woman. I would never try and replace or duplicate what we had, for that would be impossible because there is only one you. The new relationship will be new. I know it won’t happen over night. I have no clue when I will find another. I just hope that it will be deep in its own way. I could never forget you. You have left a mark on my heart (in a good way). I’m sure you’ve probably shoved me deep away somewhere and are living and loving with someone great. I hope they are treating you like the queen you are. I never told you how deep I was falling for you. It’s not your fault. Given our circumstances you made a very mature hard decision. That shows your true beautiful, strong character. I still am in love with you. I don’t know how not too. Trust me I’ve tried. I once heard to get over a true love lost you have to find a greater love. I don’t know if that’s possible. I love everything about you. Even the down right crazy side. I can’t explain it. I am here for you always. I know you will probably never need me, but I’m still here for you. Always will be. On that note I am thankful for this site. I’m kinda glad you don’t know who this is from. I really just need a vent.

    3 Responses to I am

    1. Anon
      September 16, 2017 at 9:27 pm

      Just be real

    2. Still Here
      September 17, 2017 at 5:40 am

      I hope you tell her. I am waiting to hear something like this from my woman as well. I love her, but do not have the guts to say it. I can’t really read in between lines. If you love her, tell her. She might be feeling the same. Just my 2 penny worth. Good luck, author. Please tell her.

      • @still here
        September 19, 2017 at 6:48 am

        I can’t tell them. They cut all contact with me. Won’t even answer texts I send them every once in awhile to show them I still think of them. I could only imagine the reaction of I showed up to face them in person. They would probably slam the door in my face or just not open it at all. They cut contact for a reason. I love and respect what they felt they had to do.

        Thanks for your concerns and reply.

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