If you could go back in time with the power to change something in your past if you do chose, where would you go? Why? Would you change something? What do you think the outcome would be?
I often wish I could do this, I know exactly where I’d go and what I would do. I go not wish to change very much about myself like an SAT score or anything that might vastly improve the outcome of my future but there is one nagging thing I would change. I suffered from a broken heart and often believed if I just tweaked a few things maybe things could have been different…
Here is mine:
I went to go look at a comet and shooting stars and invited a fellow student I admired his smile and intellect at prose. I hardly knew him and I admit I was a bundle of silent nerves on our drive through the California desert to our dark and starry destination. He even asked me what I was thinking but I simply said, it was a beautiful night for fear of insulting him. I did not expect the night to be so windy and so cold. He was a gentleman and set up his lens to view the moon and many other events. Upon completion I could not keep myself from shivering to observe the events I had come to see. I quickly retreated to the warmth of the VW bus for shelter. He followed and what followed was my initiated night of physical lust instead of the intended outcome to fill in the night full of hungry angst and lust. I wish i could have changed that night. I wish i had done more research, brought a jacket and blankets, maybe some hot cocoa. If that night had not been played out so quickly perhaps he and I would of lasted longer… but I did not know I’d fall in love with him forever. I wish I could make that pain of love lost go away.
What is yours?