• Please

    by  • August 29, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 3 Comments

    I hate this. I hate wondering why you have grown distant. Deep down, I know it its because of me. I know it is. I let my feelings for you get out of control, and now you are suffocating me with your distance. We never even really had anything. Did we? Did we?
    I am sorry. Please forgive me. Please.
    I miss you. I miss your hugs. I miss the comfort I feel in your presence. I miss you so much, and now… now I just long for you. You are so close, yet so far.
    I promise that if you will bless me with your friendship again, I will control myself and these urges I feel beckoning me to reach out to you. I just want you in my life. I want you, in whatever capacity you see fit to offer.
    Please.

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    3 Responses to Please

    1. please
      September 2, 2017 at 1:18 pm

      Is this really you? Are you trying to kill me? Is this your plan to make me go insane? Or do you mean what you are saying. I love you. I have been and still am in love with you. Can we just put our masks down and be who we really want to be for each other. How can we trust each other if we keep on hiding behind sites. I have said countless times I love you. How much more do you want me to prove it to you. Give a little.




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    2. Original author
      September 6, 2017 at 11:32 pm

      Ahhh. If only you were he…
      I can’t and won’t give into delusion this time.

      I am sorry, but unless we shared a-umm, awkward night about a month ago, you are not my person.

      It is very unlikely. To clear up any confusion: He is a pirate. He became distant, and he knows it. Just recently he has become a tad more, um, open, I guess. But things are different. I know I freaked him out with my actions. I know he thinks I am a terrible person. And I know he loves me, but is not “in love” with me, per se.

      It’s very confusing for me. He may have felt this connection before, but for me it is all new. And very difficult to figure out, but it goes way beyond platonic for me. I don’t always know how to handle it. I just hope he lets me try again.

      I hope i do it right this time.




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    3. Original author
      September 8, 2017 at 5:09 pm

      Okay, so let me explain, just in case this is real. I have had suspicions that you were here before, but never any solid proof or signs that could not be misinterpretted. Hence, the “pirate” sentence. It will only have meaning to him.

      Why would I want to kill you or make you go insane? I am merely attempting to expel my raw emotions, which of left alone to brew in my heart, could boil over and possibly drown my life.

      If this is really you, then I have no idea how you even found me here; therefore, without solid signals from you acknowledging your presence here, I can in no way be held accountable for any feelings or thoughts my letters may provoke in you.

      So still think this letter was meant for you? Prove it. Tell me something, a code. Tell me something that no one else would know.

      I don’t know how to give anymore. I don’t know how to remove any mask. I have always been me. I just find it hard to communicate, given certain circumstances. And you avoid alone time with me lately. And you rejected me basically throwing myself at you. Obviously, I am grasping at straws for thinking you have any attraction to me. Apparently I read everything all wrong, and I should let go and let be. It just isn’t that easy.




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