Know that I am asking you to forgive me.
A very long time ago I did not treat you, or us, with the reverence and respect that you, we , our love, our friendship, our past was deserving of.
Please forgive me for causing you, us, all
unspeakable pain , hurt and ache.
The truth is that at the time, I failed you on so many levels, because…
I failed to listen to my heart,
I failed to hear my soul,
I failed to honour my instinct,
I failed to believe our friends,
who tried to tell how much you loved me.
Instead, all I focused on was
Running away from and blocking out
You, us, myself.
My love for you.
All and everything that we ever had.
Please forgive me.
For failing to reach out to you,
For failing to call you.
For falling to send you a letter.
For falling to seek you out, in person.
Most of all please forgive me
For failing to inform you of my intentions
Before I was to sign a certificate
A document fate presented me with swiftly.
Please forgive me for not reaching out to you,
Before, prior to submittment.
Please, forgive me.