Hey Owl face,
How did it come to this?
There was a time, not so long ago
where, when things went wrong
I could drag myself to your feet
splinter into pieces
It was okay.
You were there.
You were the only one who knew how to fit them back together again
by finding the gaps between my fingers.
Everything that was broken, suddenly whole.
By the strength of your fingertips.
How did we get this far
I’ve been trying to bend my smile like a length of rebar
I’m no strongman.
All I ever knew was that
when I woke up in the morning, and saw your eyes opening with the sun
the world made sense.
Just for a second that seemed to last for years.
And I’d realize all over again that
I never knew what beauty meant.
Never knew what it meant to belong.
Hello, heart murmur.
It sounds so foolish, so wrong, so stupid.
But you’re special.
You’re so fucking special, and I just wanted to know
that you would spend the rest of your life
with someone who knew it.
Who never had a second’s doubt.
Who would love you like the grass loves the sun
Who would love you when you grew old,
and your skin started to sink around you like stones
because time only made your spirit warmer to the touch
and I knew that, if we could only mend this
you would be loved like that forever, because
I did. I do.
I would never have to worry that it had gone to waste.
Goodbye, old friend.
I hope when you think on me, it’s with fondness
I hope the memories don’t make you feel
I hope spring comes to you again
I hope you hope
hope you love
hope you trust
hope you give
hope you accept
hope you will be happy.
This isn’t about me, anymore.
I just want you to have everything.
I love you, and the word suddenly
means something different than I thought it did.
I love you when you have nothing to take
nothing to give.
If there’s a God
and if he’s listening
please let him bring you peace.
Please let him bring you love.
If I can ask for nothing else, God
please give me this.