• Why am I so stupid?

    by  • August 10, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 3 Comments

    What is wrong with me?

    Sometimes it strikes me how you can take my breath away by a look in your eye and you putting me on the spot. Thank you for that.

    Now unthank you. Because you aren’t into me. No matter how many times I throw myself at you, apparently your games are just that: GAMES.

    I must be reading the signals all wrong. You must not be into me romantically OR sexually. I guess I am just not good enough. Or maybe it was too easy, despite how hard I made it.

    3 Responses to Why am I so stupid?

    1. Redstringoffate
      August 10, 2017 at 4:45 pm

      Yup. You always have to be right so this time, I’ll just let you think you are and leave you wondering for the rest of your life if you actually are.

      • Author
        August 10, 2017 at 7:37 pm

        @redstringoffate- I don’t think you are my person. I have seen you post before, but I don’t believe you are him. Even though, that IS sometging my person would respind with. Agaun a game, to keep me wanting… to keep me “strung” up, so to speak. Or type, in this case.

        Either way, I hope that one day he reads this, and understands and cares what he put me through.

    2. Blue eyes
      August 11, 2017 at 12:45 pm

      Oh wow,this resonates deeply with a situation I myself am going through,and I gave it much thought.While I was less than I wanted to truly be,in the moment that passed between myself and this person,my fears of rejection and judgement played such a big part in that……..that I couldn’t open my mind up to completely let myself go and give of myself in the most personal ways possible.Sometimes we overthink,and disappointment in ourselves or lack of confidence takes over.I have no idea,since then,what this person must think of me,and the little girl inside the woman,cowards in fear of that answer.Best of luck to you,and your situation,your written words touched a stranger today.

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