• I guess this is it

    by  • July 30, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 16 Comments

    A part of me wishes I never came across you and a part of me is happy that I had those memories with you.
    Love comes unexpectedly, when you need it or not.
    And that’s what I’ve learned from you.
    I really didn’t need you especially how crazy stressful my life is. I thought there was no way I could ever fall in love again.
    I’ve been hurt by someone i already fell for, so falling for you is suicide to my heart.

    You were short term happiness, short of like a drug .
    And now I’m sober and everything hurts again.
    I now have to go back to the way things were.
    And learn how to live life like I never knew you.
    I can’t keep going back and forth with you saying I’m
    Done and then fake giving up .
    I have to go cold turkey with you.

    If we did have the chance I think we would’ve been great together. Just a fantasy that I keep thinking about.
    I can’t hate you even if I wanted to. I want you to be happy, even if I’m not in your life. I’m not the one you want, you’re not in love with me. And I’m actually glad you’re not, because we can’t be together anyways. And that gives you mercy from what I’m going through.

    Anyways I have to live on that’s all I can do. You were part of my journey in life and I love you. I guess this is it.

    16 Responses to I guess this is it

    1. Anon
      July 31, 2017 at 10:14 am

      How do you know for sure?

    2. .
      July 31, 2017 at 12:12 pm

      If this were for me, I want you to know I’m still in love with you and I’ll always be in love with you…

      You said you hated me and your actions proved it… So yeah, I won’t pursue someone who demonstrates pure hatred for me.

      I’m sorry you took my love for granted. I tried my hardest…I tried to make you happy.

      We can’t be together. You don’t love me and you never loved me…

      Maybe if you had done the one thing I asked from you then things would be different…

      Maybe we can be together in another life…

      • Anon
        August 19, 2017 at 7:40 am

        What was the one thing you asked? 🙁

        • .
          August 25, 2017 at 10:19 am

          Doesn’t matter now…

          • Anon
            August 29, 2017 at 3:01 pm

            It matters to me else I wouldn’t have asked. I know what he asked of me. I know he refused to believe that while I wasn’t ready or able to give him what he wanted at that particular point in time that I still loved him every bit as much as I said I did. I know he refused to believe it hurt me also, that my love was real, and he punished me for it. It’s been so long now Ive reached that place where I realise I don’t think I’ll ever get over it. Anyway, it does matter. It still matters.

            • A
              September 2, 2017 at 6:37 pm

              No, nothing matters anymore, not to me at least…

              And she never told me she loved me… so I’m probably not your man.

              I don’t want to be with her anymore. She doesn’t deserve me after everything she did…

              It’s too late. I wanted a special kind of relationship but she ruined it.

    3. Jbennett
      August 1, 2017 at 4:20 am

      Mrs …T?

      • Jbennett
        August 1, 2017 at 5:49 pm

        Mrs T compares myself to a drug. Sometimes bad, sometimes too good, hard to quit. The fact that everything is so.. matter of fact.. I can’t imagine hearing you say that though. Youve never, out if the five times you dipped out, had the minerals to say what your intentions were. After all of the hard work, only to be snuffed out by our own hand.. it’s very disappointing. Especially now that there’s a… Soul.. a tiny heartbeat..A set of wild eyes. All belonging to a baby that you and I, after four years, miraculously decided to create seconds into our separation..

        • Jbennett
          August 1, 2017 at 5:52 pm

          And I do love you, and I do want you. And your life is only as stressful as you can manage making it.

    4. Anon
      August 1, 2017 at 3:27 pm

      I will always have her in my heart and pieces of her will always remain with me even if she doesn’t want anything to do with me. I wish she knew how much i really missed her. I loved her and i never got closure because i wasnt 100% honest with her. I wish i would’ve broke the cycle before it all just turned to shit. But i sucked back then and years later still paying for it by missing someone who refuses to have anything to do with me. She probably does hate me and she probably doesnt get me but i wasnt fully me anyways so understandable. I understood her though and can’t let go even after the whole chop off the planet of her earth happened. The struggle. Is real. She probably thinks im weird af now. But i do know that we both have always been very stubborn with each other. I will never know the real depths of her mind.

      • Redstringoffate
        August 21, 2017 at 5:39 pm

        I’ll go ahead and say probably not. You missed your chance.

        • A
          August 23, 2017 at 5:26 pm


          • S
            August 25, 2017 at 2:07 pm

            Really. You deserve better. I’m not stopping you. She will make you happy.

            • Anon
              September 2, 2017 at 3:03 pm

              That’s so wrong….

            • Becky
              September 13, 2017 at 6:21 pm

              I got in the middle of your love for her. I know you love her and I don’t want to stop you any longer. Go to her. You wont be broken anymore if you stop denying it. I just regret I didn’t say this sooner.

    5. TBGH
      August 21, 2017 at 9:19 pm

      MJP the Gimpdoggy is that you …?

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