A part of me wishes I never came across you and a part of me is happy that I had those memories with you.
Love comes unexpectedly, when you need it or not.
And that’s what I’ve learned from you.
I really didn’t need you especially how crazy stressful my life is. I thought there was no way I could ever fall in love again.
I’ve been hurt by someone i already fell for, so falling for you is suicide to my heart.
You were short term happiness, short of like a drug .
And now I’m sober and everything hurts again.
I now have to go back to the way things were.
And learn how to live life like I never knew you.
I can’t keep going back and forth with you saying I’m
Done and then fake giving up .
I have to go cold turkey with you.
If we did have the chance I think we would’ve been great together. Just a fantasy that I keep thinking about.
I can’t hate you even if I wanted to. I want you to be happy, even if I’m not in your life. I’m not the one you want, you’re not in love with me. And I’m actually glad you’re not, because we can’t be together anyways. And that gives you mercy from what I’m going through.
Anyways I have to live on that’s all I can do. You were part of my journey in life and I love you. I guess this is it.