• To me pre-overdose

    by  • July 6, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, Addiction • 2 Comments

    If you’re ever thinking of trying to overdose to commit suicide or just to hurt yourself, don’t. I know it may seem like the only thing you have left. Like the crushing weight of the world is going to squish you or suffocate you. But it isn’t worth it. To survive after is far worse than pushing through it. TO not be able to take tylenol or have pain relief because it reminds you of what you did? The taste literally making you gag, and remember everything from that night. It isn’t worth it, to have people ask why you avoid going to the doctor even if it is to visit a friend. In fear that you may be recognized from that night. Not only that you will lose friends, your family wont understand, and your new boyfriend well having to explain it to him isn’t the best date night. It isn’t worth it.

    2 Responses to To me pre-overdose

    1. Teflon
      July 8, 2017 at 2:56 am

      I’m curious about your letter because I have been stockpiling various painkillers so that I have enough to do a proper job when the time comes. Not now, not soon… but when I’m old and lonely and frail and living in fear. Why did it not work? And do you have any suggestions on what you feel you should have done differently, and what I can do to make sure it works, when the time comes?

    2. Rachel
      August 1, 2017 at 9:57 pm

      I’m curious about both letters. Teflon, are you seriously encouraging this person to take their own life? To consider how to do it more effectively next time? You must know on some level that you are severely depressed and talking through your depression, but why encourage somebody else to take their life too instead of trying to find happiness and a way forward, as they are trying to do. If either of you wish to talk I’m happy to listen, and to help you if I can by way of caring and advice.

      One more thing. Neither of you can guarantee it works. There is a greater than even chance you will succeed in supressing your breathing only long enough to do permanent brain damage, if you don’t aspirate your own vomit first and die a horrible death of suffocating on your own stomach acid. There isn’t an easy way out, and even when you achieve death, how on earth do you know that it will be the end of your suffering? What if you end up being a confused earth bound spirit going “nooo, I’ve changed my mind!” but noone can hear you! Before taking such a permanent measure you might think about this as forever is a very long time compared to the average human life span. Notice I’m not throwing religion at you.. Just saying to think about it.

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