• Sometimes…..

    by  • July 6, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 1 Comment

    Sometimes I wish someone would truly love me unconditionally. I wish I could find someone to spend my life with. Many days I wish to be able to shower someone with all the love I have within me. Sometimes I feel a little jealous when I see couples, because I’ve been alone for so long. I’ve loved but, it’s never given back to me. I guess I’m tired of not sharing a life with someone. Kids, are getting older and so am I. I pray that I don’t be alone when it’s my time to leave this world.

    One Response to Sometimes…..

    1. And.
      July 6, 2017 at 2:21 pm

      I’m in the same boat. Kids are getting older – only one left at home and yet, in all my life, I have never been loved like I have loved. I poured myself into my marriage and got nothing back. I’ve had one other relationship in which I gave my all and was sorely disappointed. I also know that most relationships are pretty shit behind closed doors after about 3 years. Any good man our age is married and happily so – that’s what makes them good men. The ones our age and single are looking for women half their age and I for one am not ready for someone my fathers age – because that’s pretty much all we have left. This is also not the worst predicament in the world. It is better to be alone than to feel alone with somebody and that is how relationships usually go. I don’t know any marriage that stands up to close scrutiny behind closed doors. I have accepted the fact that I will leave this earth never having been truely loved for who I am. Most men see me through some filter and project the most insane shit onto me – they fall in love and when I turn out human – they can’t handle it. Men who I am not attracted to in anyway would have me but then what kind of life is that? That’s unfair to him and me. True, equal love is rare. Good luck. 🙂

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