It’s been months since we have actually had a conversation. And it is hard to believe that what once was an inseparable friendship, has become this. We did everything together, and suddenly one day after the next, things started changing. We stopped hanging out, and you refused to make eye contact with me when we walked past each other.
We shared our deepest secrets with one another, we never thought it would come to this. Well, I guess I never thought it would come to this. I know our old relationship will never be back to how it was. We have both moved on.
Throughout our friendship we learned there are always ups and downs, but since him… You hold this grudge. Sure I’m not gonna lie, what I did was wrong. But what you did was also wrong. I forgave you, and he forgave you. You told me I was a bad person for some of my actions. Sure maybe I am not the most innocent girl in the world, and you know that better than anyone, but you always pushed that aside. I honestly don’t know what has changed. There was a moment right after our argument, I wrote something to you, and everything seemed to be okay for a couple days, you said you never wanted to lose me and I was your best friend. Months later, something tragic happened in my life, and you were there for me then. You seemed genuinely worried. But soon there after, you brought that grudge back up. I apologized for what I did to you. I regret it more than anything. I have apologized to you a million times, and the response… I’m not someone you want to be friends with.
People are shocked when they find out we are no longer friends. Because we were ALWAYS together. I know at this point, we won’t ever have what we had before. And you know what? I’m okay with that. If you can cut off your best friend, and say such hurtful things to her as well, but not own up to shit, or apologize, than you don’t deserve my friendship again. I forgave you, I wish you would do the same. Just because you forgive someone doesn’t mean you have to be their friend again. It just lifts an unnecessary weight off your shoulders.