Sometimes I wish I could undo everything I’ve ever said to you. Take the good with the bad, erase it all, and truly start fresh. I know I’m not very consistent. Believe me, I know this better than anyone. My life is not what I thought it would be, and I have a lot of trouble coping with that. But as life goes on, as one endures, there is the chance too that life will get better.
I am taking it upon myself to be more positive. Call it a mid-years resolution of sorts. So much of my life has been so negative for so long and that is obviously and literally depressing. A lot of that is circumstances, and a lot of that is perception too. I’ve had a negative perception for a very long time, and I don’t really know why, but, if I can’t always change my circumstances, why can’t I change my perception, right? I choose hope, not despair.
And you, well, I mean of course you already know all this. You beacon of self-enlightenment you. :). I’m kidding. But we can both agree you’ve got your shit together a lot better than me. You know, you could help. But if you don’t want to, that’s ok, I CAN do it myself. You deserve that.
The last thing I’ll say tonight, is that perception is a funny thing. Like how you become what you perceive and maybe even more so what you want to perceive. Well, as fantasy become reality, i should say that, as difficult as it is, I can forgive you your Peter Keating. But we both know I should be next,