So I will try 1 last time to see if you still scan these pages and ask the unanswered questions of a very short, yet life altering time in my ( I will not presume to say our) life. I understand all the dynamics of my situation during that time and how they would have blocked anything from happening but, for reasons even I am unsure of, I need to hear it plainly said. Did you have the same feelings towards me as I (had) towards you? I highlight had because it does not meet the true intent but I have had to accept the inevitable truth of my life. With that said I still would desire a cold, hard, in my face answer. If you stumble across this my muse, please swallow hard and type in the 100% real truth to me. I would rather know than think that I heard what was not said. I want you to know I was crushed by the turn of events and I hated the ultimate outcome being what it was. I am at fault from start to end and allowed a very low point in my life to turn into a disaster. I will always see you as my first love and a starting point of the birth of desire in me. I will always love you for these reasons and always look at that stretch of sand as my heaven on earth, even with your lack of memory. That hurt, but I can deal with it. So please know that you are forever part of me in an incredibly important way and that cannot ever change. I know you are not wordy but I could use a change in that just once. Tell me your story…..