• I just can’t stop

    by  • May 15, 2017 • Sex • 3 Comments

    Dear Friends and Relatives,

    I just can’t stop. I’m sure I’m not a sex addict. This only happens about once a week. My life is stressful and I need to take a break and indulge. I know it’s a selfish activity, but it makes me feel so good and I’m so relaxed afterwards.

    I know if you knew what I was doing, you would probably find it disgusting. “Good” people don’t do such things. I have met a lot of people online involved in this and they seem to be people you’d like.

    I guess I am an exhibitionist, although I don’t expose myself to people who don’t want to see me naked. There are so many websites available now that make it possible to be a “good” exhibitionist. I also know there are a lot of people on these sites who are there to make money off the “voyeurs”. I never pay anyone and am never paid myself. For me this is just interactive virtual sex. I like to watch other people and some people like watching me. We have erotic conversations and sometimes we just talk.

    If this was interfering with my life, I would think about getting help, but I believe that it’s actually helping. When my partner is not in the mood or not available, this activity keeps me sane.

    Almost all people masturbate. I think we should not limit ourselves to watching “canned” porn. Since I became sexual, I have always looked for ways to enhance my sexual fantasies. Interactive web video and audio have enhanced my fantasies in so many ways.

    I wish our society was more open to talk about these things. My only regret is that I have to carefully hide these activities from you, because I have seen how you condemn people who engage in them. I hate hiding anything from you, but until attitudes change, I’ll still feel like a secret pervert.

    3 Responses to I just can’t stop

    1. "Jane"
      May 16, 2017 at 9:44 am

      We’re all perverts in one way or another. My ex love is, luckily or I wouldn’t be able to get off. That makes me a weirdo but oh well. I like watching my ex. She’s my fetish

    2. Emlee
      May 17, 2017 at 10:32 pm

      Be careful with this.. I had the same interest and same reasons for enjoying it. For me the underlying cause was a need for a attention and underlying insecurities, and meeting men online made me feel exited and wanted without being actually vulnerable. It only led to more problems but it took me some time to figure that out.

      My unsolicited advice is if your not getting what you need in your relationship, ask for more. If it’s just not there, then move on an invest your time and emotions into someone who is interested in you with your clothes on to start. You are worthy of love, respect, and fiery real-life passion. <3

      • Rich
        May 22, 2017 at 10:39 am

        Thanks Emlee, It sounds like you understand where I am in this. I can’t see the “more problems” you talk about yet. I have been doing this and thinking about it for some time. I know it has created some space between me and my partner, but we still love each other deeply. It sounds like you have stopped doing this, but I just don’t see myself stopping yet.

        I know this is a selfish behavior, but I feel like I need to be selfish from time to time. Thank you for your advice. I have tried asking for more, but I don’t think my partner can provide the kind of excitement I seek. I am committed to this relationship, so moving on is not an option for me.

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