Dear Friends and Relatives,
I just can’t stop. I’m sure I’m not a sex addict. This only happens about once a week. My life is stressful and I need to take a break and indulge. I know it’s a selfish activity, but it makes me feel so good and I’m so relaxed afterwards.
I know if you knew what I was doing, you would probably find it disgusting. “Good” people don’t do such things. I have met a lot of people online involved in this and they seem to be people you’d like.
I guess I am an exhibitionist, although I don’t expose myself to people who don’t want to see me naked. There are so many websites available now that make it possible to be a “good” exhibitionist. I also know there are a lot of people on these sites who are there to make money off the “voyeurs”. I never pay anyone and am never paid myself. For me this is just interactive virtual sex. I like to watch other people and some people like watching me. We have erotic conversations and sometimes we just talk.
If this was interfering with my life, I would think about getting help, but I believe that it’s actually helping. When my partner is not in the mood or not available, this activity keeps me sane.
Almost all people masturbate. I think we should not limit ourselves to watching “canned” porn. Since I became sexual, I have always looked for ways to enhance my sexual fantasies. Interactive web video and audio have enhanced my fantasies in so many ways.
I wish our society was more open to talk about these things. My only regret is that I have to carefully hide these activities from you, because I have seen how you condemn people who engage in them. I hate hiding anything from you, but until attitudes change, I’ll still feel like a secret pervert.