The days are long and the nights are cold. You refuse to leave my mind and the grip you have on my heart is so tight it is hard to breathe.
I close my eyes and see the eyes I try to forget.
I close my eyes and see everything I have always wanted.
I close my eyes and imagine you are with me.
I close my eyes and all the memories I try so hard to forget come rushing back to my mind.
I close my eyes and cannot forget the love I felt for you.
I close my eyes and see the woman I have always wanted to spend my life with.
I close my eyes and I continue to see an image of beauty.
I close my eyes and realize you were just a dream.
Time does not stop and life goes on but, the love I feel is still true. Nothing has changed since the first time I realized my feelings for you were more than I wanted to admit. I have tried to move on and date, tried to realize we never were and never could be but, my heart cannot seem to forget you. I have not found the space to let anyone else in my life and take your place; a place that should not be yours. Some days I feel like I am going completely crazy for the feelings I have; loving an enigma. We lost touch so long ago and I have accepted that it never was but, my heart cannot seem to understand what my head already know.
Just know, that you are never far from my thoughts and heart. I pray that you and your family are doing well and that you my dear are completely happy. I was not able to be the one that makes you happy, I just pray that the one you love is accomplishing what I wish could have been my mission in life.