I’m 19 and I want to die. I would give anything just to be numb for a little while. They don’t see the pain and they don’t see the lies when I sigh and say “I’m fine.” I was just in the hospital I attempted suicide. I think that’s the 11th time? I cut myself, on my wrists, stomach, and thighs. It give me numbness for a few seconds but it doesn’t last. I burn my wrists sometimes but I hate the smell of burning flesh. I like the bite of the blade and the instant pain. I like the way it seems to fade. Sometimes when its deep enough the entire world goes fuzzy. I want to die. I wish the life I live wasn’t mine.