I hate myself for liking you so much, despite the fact that i definitely shouldn’t. I feel jealously and sadness; I don’t deserve to and shouldn’t be feeling these emotions in the first place however, i can’t help what i feel and think about you; you are genuinely one of the most amazing people I’ve ever had the pleasure of knowing. You make my face light up into a smile with your stupid humor, light flirting and friendly teasing (which i can tell is sometimes deliberate..maybe you like my smile. Who knows?), i still get butterflies being around you, you in general make my heart skip. You’re just so amazing, and possibly one of the sweetest and most adorable people i know; I’ve even heard from others that you say sweet things about me when I’m not around. We share such a special bond as it is now and I’m so thankful for that, but sometimes i wish it could be more; although i feel incredibly guilty thinking this. Thank you for all the special and fun moments we’ve shared; I look forward to more of those moments. I wouldn’t be where i am now without you.