• You still manage to surprise me

    by  • April 18, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, Art of the Letter • 5 Comments

    I have been thinking about you a lot lately. About our relationship, if I can call it that. Why I get frustrated so often, why you seem so distant sometimes. Why we circle around but never intersect. I can only speak for myself, of course, but I know that I want this, I want you. And I think you want me too. They say that where theres a will, theres a way. Well, fortunately we have two (quite formidable) wills, that, if we combine together, can find the way.

    I remember when I first saw you, I looked around the room, and couldnt understand why this Goddess before me didnt have the full and rapt attention of every man and woman there. From day one, you certainly had mine. And, in truth, maybe thats always been part of the problem. It didnt take me very long to fall for you. At the time, I didnt understand why it would take you more time. Maybe I still fully dont. The past is the past, but I really dont have many regrets. Most, if not all of my words and actions were directed in good faith towards bringing us together, if you can believe that. To be fair, we both made mistakes, but I think we are both more mature now and capable of realizing when its better to forgive and move forward. At least, Im at that point, I understand what youre worth to me.

    For whatever mistakes, setbacks, and unfortunate circumstances led to us never taking the next step, theres always a new day today to try again. Whether we have to try harder, or try different things, or whatever we have to do, if we keep trying this is going to work. If we both took 10% of our ego, of our self, and put it towards being together, we could make this happen sooner than you may think. Together. I need your help. But I also want to help you, and I have some ideas.

    For me, what I need, is more open communication from you. Thats the hardest thing for me. Im not asking for much. If you can do that, it will help me do what I know you need me to do, get my life together.

    Don’t you think its about time we get right with each other? I do.

    Happy Easter, and Love,

    5 Responses to You still manage to surprise me

    1. sux
      April 19, 2017 at 12:19 am

      The title speaks of surprise, but… lo and behold,,,

      so anyways, I just wanted to say that this speaks to me, as if my tf were talking directly to me…

    2. Anonymous
      April 19, 2017 at 2:56 am

      I feel compelled to reply to this letter for some reason. Anyways. The chances of me being the person you are writing about are very slim at best. However, the title of your post popped into my head earlier in the day. So there has to be a reason, correct? Anyways, you said that you want to help this person. In what way do you intend to help? It sounds like there is no communication (at least not verbal) so why do you think they would need help? Also. You mention that you want, “more open communication” with them. It goes both ways. You need to make an effort to do the same otherwise you’ll be stuck where you two are now. Like planets orbiting near each other. A neverending madness. So close. But so far. You both have to meet each other half way. If this person is holding onto the past (could be the reason nothing is moving forward). Maybe consider that if they have tried to reach out to you and you barely responded or didn’t say much. Then that might be why they aren’t giving you “more open communication.” One last critique. You wrote that “If you can do that, it will help me do what I know you need me to do, get my life together.” How is another person going to help you “get your life together”? This sounds like you need this person to make you feel complete. Even if that is not your intention. This person is not supposed to make you feel complete. Despite what the media and society will tell you. You need to feel complete within yourself. That’s how you “get your life together.” You need to heal yourself. It’s the only way. If you feel like this person can support you and you two can help heal each other. Than that’s great. But if you want them to hold your hand the whole time. Then you’re not doing the both of you any good. I’m not trying to be negative. I do think you are speaking from the heart and that you more than likely have good intentions. I just feel that you may be placing expectations on this person and it may be what’s causing you so much frustration. Also I’m writing this from an objective stance not an emotional one. Much peace, light and love to you. And I hope your situation works out 🙂

    3. Anewday
      April 19, 2017 at 9:08 am

      I say yes!

    4. V
      April 20, 2017 at 2:58 am

      If you feel that way… u should tell her instead of keep waiting. Communication is the solution … easy? Nop, worth? Absolutely…

    5. kpun
      September 20, 2017 at 9:04 pm

      Well that worked out well.

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