I’m so lost. And I am not proud of myself. Not impressed at all. I’m lazy with no motivation. I’m all talk. How is it that you have not striked me with a lightning bolt yet? The world needs one less useless person wasting their talents, feeling sorry for themselves.
I am so sorry my love, for not doing anything with my life. For being so self centered. For wasting precious time. I am so good at failing and not learning from my mistakes. How then am I still surrounded by so many gorgeous souls? How are they not repelled by my stinking bullshit?
I don’t want to keep failing like this. Failing for not even trying. Yet for some reason I can’t just keep going – right now.
I don’t want to stand up. I don’t want to move. I just want to stay here.
Can I just stay here?