• 11:20 PM

    by  • March 22, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 1 Comment

    It’s 11:20 PM and I’m wide awake thinking about you yet again. I don’t know why my mind always wonders back to you. I love you so very much but I know I shouldn’t. It’s dangerous for me and for you. I thought that I had moved on until I messaged you a couple days ago. I don’t know why I can’t move on. You are the reason I decided to let myself love and be loved again. But it’s so hard because I don’t want anyone but you. I want to wake up with good morning texts from you. Better yet, I want to wake up in your arms. But you’re a bad man. You hurt a lot of people including me. But that doesn’t stop me from loving you any less. I miss you.

    One Response to 11:20 PM

    1. A Soul
      March 23, 2017 at 9:10 am

      ***This, most likely, is not a response to you – but, what you describe is so very close to home – I wanted to express myself as well***

      It’s 8:49 AM on March 23rd. I am always thinking of you. Whether I am wide awake or asleep and dreaming. My mind always wanders to you also. It never stops – I never stop thinking of you. Your message surprised me the other day. I was thrilled to hear from you. There have been many times where I have thought the same thing. Move on and just be there for you as a normal person. It is just not possible. I cannot unlove you. Nor do I want to ever do so. I love you so very much, as well. I shouldn’t either; but, I do. It’s hard for me, too. It is dangerous. Dangerous for a both of us. But, I love you – I love you anyway. I love our texts, our good mornings and good nights. They give me such amazing feelings. To be in your arms? That is so wonderful…Better than any possible dream I could have. I want to fall asleep wrapped in your arms, and awaken still as we fell asleep. I never wanted to be a bad person; I never wanted anyone to hurt. I wish more than anything for all the pain to be gone. Please understand. Please realize how much I love everything – how much I love everyone involved – how much I love you. I do. I do so very much. I miss you… I miss you in ways I never imagined.

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