I don’t know what to do with myself. I am not happy until I see you again. I cry my heart out here without you, wishing I could hold you and make time with you. This is killing me. Love is tearing me apart. Why does it have to be like this? I am here and you are there. Two people living two very different lives and on different continents. Corners far, far and wide away from each other. How I want things to be different so very much. I need you here. I need you in my arms to stay forever. I cry for us and it is almost physical painful that I cannot have you, cannot see you when I need to. Sometimes I feel so pathetic about my feelings and being so weak and so in love with you, but somebody has told me right now that feelings are not pathetic which I heard you say to me. Only you keep me sane. Only you I am living for now and waiting for. Baby you are my whole world and my life, my heart and soul. Purely everything to me. Please say something to me. Please find a way to tell me how you feel. I am waiting for you with arms wide open for you. Don’t be afraid, Don’t be scared. I am here. I know your heart. I love you so so so so much, so truly and madly.