When you told me many years ago not to wait and walked out my door I cried for days.
I was depressed when I went back to
school. Started painting and other things to cope with how much us parting hurt.
Then fate intervened and is all a blur.
But I know fate intervened many times but somehow we still decided to stay apart.
I look back now and see how my baggage made it easy to leave me and makes it easy not to love me.
I tried to not wait for you but the truth is I never moved on just continued to live and present to what the universe was offering. I needed to go thru all I did to be better. Not only for me but so one I could love another and be loved in return.
I see now that you don’t want anything to do with me or you would not completely take me or granted time and again then randomly resurfacing and not following thru with promises…you jus disappear again.
I accept you don’t wante to look to the horizon anymore and if you knew I was waiting for you well that probably wouldn’t matter either.
I will let these feelings go by not reaching out or speakin your name again. I will keep them silently to myself and allow another in.
I know that is what you want, noting to do with me.